Juggling Act

So as a Mom I know that I take on and have many different roles in life.  Since I have returned to work after having Noah and I am realizing now more than ever how important it is to prioritize and use my time very wisely.  The one thing that I was afraid of about coming back to work is that my baby will be spending almost more time per week with someone else instead of with me.  Noah is at daycare 3 days a week for 8 hours per day, and also with Matt about 12 hours per week when I am not there.  That is 36 hours of time that it being taken away from me and being used by someone else.  I am not sure exactly how I feel about this because I do understand the importance of my working for my family right now, but that sure doesn't make it any easier.  I know that for the next year or so I will need to continue working full-time to reach some of the goals that Matt and I have set for my family.  Now that it is Summer it's a little easier when I come home because we aren't having to take time to do homework, but we still have baseball practices and other events in the evening.  Call me selfish, and I don't know why I am still having such a hard time with this.  I am praying that going forward it will get easier with every day that passes.  I sure don't want to be the one who misses the first word, or step due to the fact that he is in daycare.